The smell of cigars

Every once in awhile as i'm driving I get the slight scent drifting past my nose, just a hint of cigars. I'll take a deep breathe and try to hold that scent in, let it massage the hurt in my heart. I know it's dad saying 'HI Babe" his favorite greeting to my sister and myself.

I've been driving dads car since he passed going on 7 years now. There are also times that I can smell a sickly odor, from when dad was battling cancer. This car is something that I've been able to hold onto, HOLD is the right world. I can touch it, feel it and remember the times good and bad from within this car.

I finally had to let the car go, my sister in law really needed a car to get around with. Back and forth to and from work. Hubby went over this past weekend and deemed their Blazer as gone, blown motor. My brother in law looked devastated, granted they really don't have any money (most of this problem is of their own, oh, lets say laziness. Hubby knew that I really didn't want to give this car away, but sometimes you have to help family.

So we talked about it briefly and decided it was the right thing to do, surely not the easiest. As I was telling her about the little quirks of the car, like the blinkers don't work in the rain unless you hit the emergency flashers twice. The smell of cigars is just dad saying hi, the gas Gauge that refuses to work no matter how many times it's been repaired. Again dad saying will you please pay attention!


So i will miss this car and the many reminders of dad, not nearly as much as I miss dad though.I'm sure he would be okay with this transfer.

Dad I know your listening, i love you and miss you lots. I really want to get a scent of your cigars in my car.

irritated!

Can someone please tell me why school buses have to stop in front of a child's house with their red lights flashing and wait, and wait, and wait, and wait again. Is it just me or what? Truthfully, my kids had a bus stop to go to at a certain time. I understand that some of the kids are young, but I also need to get to work and not be delayed by 10-15 minutes waiting for the bus to go from one house to another block by block. To answer your question, yes I leave in plenty of time to get to work, if I didn't have to wait so long for the school buses. Have your kids ready to get on the bus before it gets there. No you really don't need to talk to the bus driver for a few minutes before the lovely bus driver goes to house a few yards down the road. Yes, today it was me beeping and waving my hands, pointing at my watch saying enough is enough. I have been dealing with you since September, can you just kindly please pull over to the curb if you're going to wait indefinitely for one of our future politicians. I understand that kids dilly dally all the time and get engrossed in either TV, games, or what to wear and what to eat for breakfast. I have been there and done that, wake your little darlings up a few minutes earlier and keep the TV and games OFF. It actually gets to the point that there are a few cars behind and also a few behind the school bus, turn your flashers off and let us go by. I never ever, let me repeat NEVER EVER came out of the house in my bathrobe to either pick up my kids or even drop them off at school. I really don't care what you look like in your PJ's just throw on a pair of sweats and get you little darling out to the bus stop on time. I believe that this is just common decency, don't you?

Joined the gym, (HAHAHAHA)

So the New Year has started and the weight has piled on, of course eating hasn't helped any with the weight gain. So we joined the gym, let me rephrase that we joined the gym, hahahaha. This is going to be very interesting, my hubby and I aren't all that active in the exercise department. We have both gained ALOT of weight over the last few years. Having the good ole muffin top sprouting out of the top of my pants isn't all that attractive. I am at my heaviest right now and not all that happy about it. Going up another size in pants is not an option right now, actually it's not an option at all. Been there and done that several sizes ago. So tonight is the official weigh in and talk to a trainer to see what I need to do to get a little healthier. He asked yesterday what my main goal was and I said to try and get to the gym for at least 1 month, funny he actually groaned. Hubby seems to be on the band wagon, we shall see what he says when there are no more chocolate chip cookies and swedish fish left in the house. I know that we both need to get healthier, of course history of high blood pressure and heart disease runs rampant in hubby's family. I think more insanity runs much more rampant in my family. So wish me some luck for a healthy and thinner New Year.