irritated!

Can someone please tell me why school buses have to stop in front of a child's house with their red lights flashing and wait, and wait, and wait, and wait again. Is it just me or what? Truthfully, my kids had a bus stop to go to at a certain time. I understand that some of the kids are young, but I also need to get to work and not be delayed by 10-15 minutes waiting for the bus to go from one house to another block by block. To answer your question, yes I leave in plenty of time to get to work, if I didn't have to wait so long for the school buses. Have your kids ready to get on the bus before it gets there. No you really don't need to talk to the bus driver for a few minutes before the lovely bus driver goes to house a few yards down the road. Yes, today it was me beeping and waving my hands, pointing at my watch saying enough is enough. I have been dealing with you since September, can you just kindly please pull over to the curb if you're going to wait indefinitely for one of our future politicians. I understand that kids dilly dally all the time and get engrossed in either TV, games, or what to wear and what to eat for breakfast. I have been there and done that, wake your little darlings up a few minutes earlier and keep the TV and games OFF. It actually gets to the point that there are a few cars behind and also a few behind the school bus, turn your flashers off and let us go by. I never ever, let me repeat NEVER EVER came out of the house in my bathrobe to either pick up my kids or even drop them off at school. I really don't care what you look like in your PJ's just throw on a pair of sweats and get you little darling out to the bus stop on time. I believe that this is just common decency, don't you?

Joined the gym, (HAHAHAHA)

So the New Year has started and the weight has piled on, of course eating hasn't helped any with the weight gain. So we joined the gym, let me rephrase that we joined the gym, hahahaha. This is going to be very interesting, my hubby and I aren't all that active in the exercise department. We have both gained ALOT of weight over the last few years. Having the good ole muffin top sprouting out of the top of my pants isn't all that attractive. I am at my heaviest right now and not all that happy about it. Going up another size in pants is not an option right now, actually it's not an option at all. Been there and done that several sizes ago. So tonight is the official weigh in and talk to a trainer to see what I need to do to get a little healthier. He asked yesterday what my main goal was and I said to try and get to the gym for at least 1 month, funny he actually groaned. Hubby seems to be on the band wagon, we shall see what he says when there are no more chocolate chip cookies and swedish fish left in the house. I know that we both need to get healthier, of course history of high blood pressure and heart disease runs rampant in hubby's family. I think more insanity runs much more rampant in my family. So wish me some luck for a healthy and thinner New Year.

Solar panels

My husband seen an article about solar panels and the cost savings with the electric company. Of course, that set him off. Now it was "did you check into the solar panels"? Did you happen to see how many houses in the neighborhood had the panels installed? On and on this went until I relented and started checking into the panels. Wow, the cost of purchasing the panels were astronomical. Told hubby this isn't going to happen, way too much out of pocket expense. We then were told about leasing the solar panels, much cheaper out of pocket expense. Weren't too such about how it all worked, so figured that I would check into it a little. So I called Garden State Solar in Middletown, NJ. I spoke with the rudest man I ever had the chance to speak with. "Look lady if your not sure what you want to do, don't bother me i'm too busy". Well Kevin (insert much sarcasm here)

I'm sure that you really thought that you were busy, but based on some of the reviews that I read you really weren't that busy. I just glad that you answered the phone Kevin, otherwise I wouldn't have this lovely blog. Reliable Power and Solar were the best Company that I have dealt with in a long time. Professional, courteous and efficient. They took care of permits, paperwork and everything else that needed to be done. Thank you so much for such a great job.

Home vs House.

Home vs. House

Every morning sitting in the living room with the sun slowly filtering through the curtains having my much needed coffee, I glance over to the corner of the living room. I can still see the outline of the hospital bed and our son lying in the bed. My heart breaks again, so much pain and sorrow.
We bought this house over 32 years ago with so much excitement and dreams, both of us working full time and we could still barley afford the mortgage. The wonderful dreams that we created for our new home, yes home, this was our new home not just a house anymore. It was small only one bedroom; I guess you could call it a bungalow. Two blocks away from the beach and a nice size yard, just imagine the swing set and puppies running around with our children. Three years later a little boy was born, Joseph Anthony.
We needed more room to grow, so we added on and recreated our home. Brian James was born three years later. As our children grew and flourished it was amazing at the joy the 2 boys brought to our lives. Grammar school, Soccer, Baseball, Ice Hockey, High School we were always on the move. Sports, homework and of course the squabbles between brothers, the discipline (no cookies before dinner) life was good.
The phone call came late one April afternoon, mom my daughter in law said so upset. They found a something on Joey’s pelvis, it looks like a tumor. My oldest son was in the Navy stationed in Japan, he was having some pain down his right leg and thought that he pulled a muscle or even possible had a hernia. They flew him and his wife, Miki from Japan to San Diego. The diagnosis Osteosarcoma, bone cancer! Between getting Joey and Miki a place to stay in San Diego, (not too far from the hospital) and flying back and forth from New Jersey it was trying. Having my youngest son Brian helping out and staying in San Diego so this way someone was always with Joey, was a godsend.
We finally had to bring Joey back home; he needed constant care and pain management. His wife needed to go back to Japan to be with their two children for a while (another blog at another time). We drove back and forth from Johns Hopkins hospital and home. Needless to say 10 very short months later at the very young age of 26 our oldest son lost his battle with cancer.
Our youngest son Brian moved out just over a year ago to Nebraska, so incredibly proud of the young man he has become. He has been able to grow in mind, body, soul and spirit. Of course we miss him terribly, but just imagining how much he has gone through and his determined spirit is uplifting for us.
So, now I’m back to what to do in regards to this house that we are now living in together. Notice I didn’t say home, it just doesn’t feel like my home any more. Yes, I can still picture all the Christmas presents under the tree and who is going to open the first gift that Santa gave them. I still have those memories and many, many more. When the sadder memories are more prominent in your mind do you stay in the house and hope with all your heart that it will once again become your home?
I’m on the edge here, not sure what my next move is and what it should be. We have lost a part of our hearts and are trying to heal and keep each other together. Family and friends have helped us so much; that we can’t even began to express our heartfelt thanks.
Lately our sorrow is engulfing our memories more and more or maybe it just seems that way to me. Either way we are still trying to figure out the next thing to do, the right thing to do. I’m hoping that over time we will be able to figure out what will be best for us.

remembrance

Ahhh, just remembering the definition of the fine bone sculpture. Oh so delicate and pleasing to behold. I admit that I miss you, it's the little things in life that put a smile on your face. I have such a longing to see again, slim and defining. Sigh, I guess you are a thing of the past. On to the present of the merging of one into the other. Who knew that CANKLES were the thing of the future. I miss my ankles so!

dear sir

Dear Gravity,

Our mutual dislike for one another has been going on for quite sometime now. I fought a long and hard battle with you for a number of years. I still haven't given up the fight as of yet, I must admit though that at times it looks like your winning. Perkiness is a thing of the past, even though i miss it sometimes.

I will continue to fight with you, I will droop no more! I must admit that years ago I defied you on all aspects of life. As the years go by my fight with you has at times taken a backseat. I'm slowly getting back into fighting form. I might not be as good as I once was, but I'll give you fight.

Just so that we're both on the same page YOU SUCK!!!!

Your opponent.

Snarky

snarky (ˈsnɒːkɪ)
— adj , snarkier , snarkiest
informal unpleasant and scornful

Don't you just love this word? Even saying it can put a smile on your face. What's really funny is if you say to someone "no need to be so snarky" and a look of total bafflement comes over their face. You just know that as soon as they can they'll be on the computer looking up the meaning of the word.

Snarky is my word of the day.