Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Mixed Emotions

Picked my daughter in law up from the airport the other day. I have not been looking forward to her return trip, not so much because of her, but the feelings that are bound to come around. Harder than I thought it was going to be, the images that just popped into my head.. It's been almost three years now since my son passed away from cancer, having my daughter in law come back to the house after two years brought everything back in a rush. We picked her up from the airport and drove back to the house. As I opened the door I could see my son in the hospital bed with a huge smile on his face. She was his life, he loved her with his heart and soul.

There have been many, many conflicts with my daughter in law. Even more than she'll ever know. I HAVE to be nice, I have two grandchildren that live in Japan. I would like to see them some time in the future.

After a week of her being here, it was time for her to go. I needed an emotional rest, no more heartache. It was extremely exhausting emotionally, I hit an all time low. It's now time to relax and regenerate my brain cells. I'm just so tired.

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